Hipster Denny has a Rant >_>

[Denver]

okay..

Okay, so there's a ton of things I have to rant about but no one to rant at. My apologies if there's a rant board or something, I haven't seen it. Also, I don't mean to offend any one here so, again my apologies if I do. I will probably re-use this thread for a while.

_1. Gosh where do I start? Okay maybe with what's closest, my family. I know I probably shouldn't be ranting about my family and I should be thankful and such, but..I can't stand this for some reason. My sister. My sister is just, ugh. For some reason everything she does is annoying the heck outta me, just every day stuff, the way she talks, and acts, is extremely annoying to me. Its getting to the point where I actually want to hurt her, or something. But I haven't so don't get offended or something. I've been having rage/anger problems a lot lately, and I don't know why. Mom thinks its a joke I'm pulling just to get attention, but quite honestly I want to be left alone and I don't like when attention is put on me, it makes me feel queasy just thinking about it. But anyways, everyone but my fiance thinks that I'm just joking or doing it for attention, and even my so called friends think that. I don't know. Maybe I'm just weird, or something, dunno, but its getting quite annoying honestly.

_2. School. My gosh, school has been really draining lately, well mostly because I don't sleep anymore, but I'll get to that next. There's this one teacher in particular that is really getting to me. She has me separated from the whole freaking class, and she don't separate other people, even though, they're the ones who talk all class and don't get anything done. I do. I don't have any problems when I'm in that class, aside from the teacher, she targets specifically me. Mom has called the school but they tell her to call the guidance and they don't pick up, and god forbid should mom actually go to the school and talk to the teacher herself, no, she wants me to stand up to her and like, go off on her for separating me from everyone else. But hell, I can't even do that to my peers, let alone a teacher.

_3. The house. This kind of goes along with number 1, but not really. We've recently been forced to move from our house that we were buying, which we lived in for eight years and had it all paid off but the guy we had been renting from was actually using our rent money to pay off his own house and then he went and changed the land contract so we ended up having to move. So now we are stuck in this cruddy run down house, that I absolutely hate. My neighbors. I've never once lived in a house with other people living around us and now we live in this subdivision like thing, with no place to go for walks which I used to do every day. So not only am I losing sleep because of the house, but I've lost the option to even go outside, its not only because of the neighbors but its because of what the neighbor's are. At least four of my neighbors are registered sex offenders. And my direct next door neighbor is a..never mind, just a really bad person to be around, and I refuse to go outside unless I have my fiance with me. Not only is that happening, I'm seeing stuff in this house, and feeling stuff in the house, I don't feel like we should be here, at all. Like, I feel like something really bad has happened here and I don't want to stay around to find out. I don't know, of course here I am, just ranting.

_4. Cousins are supposed to put family first, right? Not my cousin. Noo. This one really don't matter and it really don't matter, nor will I try to change this. But anyways. She recently got with my ex boyfriend from a while ago, and he's not someone I would with for my worst enemy to be with, let alone my cousin. He's done some seriously inappropriate things to me, and I just want to make sure he don't do the same to her, but she thinks that I'm just trying to break them up, and is talking about me behind my back. That really don't bother me either, but its just that she knows what he had done to me and she's still with him. She witnessed it first hand when I went through it and now she thinks that he has changed. But I really know that he hasn't and he's just using her for sex. I don't know. I have to get this kind of things off my chest before I explode.

But forreals you guys, I don't mean to offend anyone, nor do I expect anyone to give me pity or even reply, I just need to get these things off my chest before I end up beating some one senseless.

I have issues. Don't remind me.